My primary question to myself was why I even work at all. The picture I always have in my head when I’m slaving away is the thought of my kids gather happily around the {christmas wreath}. I know that’s what keeps me going. The world of business is stressful and people work hard with nothing but a paycheck to look forward to.

Second, I figured I should think of stuff I do enjoy doing. I like fishing! I could be a fisherman?  No that doesn’t sound as fun as the fishing I do. Then I thought that I like coaching my son’s football team. Maybe I could be a teacher. That actually would be a good job apart from the drawback of going back to school.

When I think about things realistically I know I’m stuck where I am for now. Retirement is close enough that I really guess I can cope. I suppose I can cope for a few more years anyway. It’s really participating in the rat race that is really hard for me, playing the game. There, that’s my solution! I’ll relax and let the world go by. Stop bringing work home with me, and stop checking my email before bed. They won’t fire me. My severance package alone would take me past my planned retirement.
Maybe this year I’ll just slack off, hang a decorated christmas wreath with the kids, and make some real memories. Well there that alone gives me a year to look forward to. While at work I can envision a nice relaxing holiday, and think of my new New Years resolution.

Flipping Christmas

Christmas can bring happiness, joy and stress, that is, for sure. Annually, I get myself all stressed out over the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season. Sometimes for me, I see Christmas just like the usual depressing and happiest holiday of the year. Why? Due to that I think about something that I haven’t done at all this year, and with another one approaching quickly I don’t know if I’ll be able to make my goal. It’s the fact of having a baby, is the thing that is so depressing for me. My man Labron, he just helps me relax and makes sure I don’t worry myself to death at this holiday that comes once a year and always ends up ok. Everything down to picking up my new upside down christmas tree stresses me out!

I always believe though that maybe it’s the only time of this year that I get to notice some of the things I don’t possibly have, that’s why I go to this some sort of Christmas stress. But things actually turn better when eve comes. There are people who I see that I rarely get to, my parents for one, since they live in Maine and we are all the way in Florida, also I like to see my 3 nieces. Although sometimes we don’t encourage them to visit us during Christmas because I know they have other plans on this occasion.

Before all this, I do a lot of stress busting techniques to get my mind off of it. I usually plan ahead and list down all the things to prepare. My hubby tries his hardest to help me by making suggestions on how we can stretch our dollars even further during the holiday seasons. Next year my hope is that we will be able to spend Christmas away from home, the hope being the stress levels would be lower. I like to think of the things I’m looking forward to purely for my enjoyment like my chandelier christmas tree.